OK, I know a lot of people think I'm a total fruitcake.
Some even think I'm really a man pretending to be a woman.
I know one of my great heroes Faye Kane has the same problem!
Well, everyone, I'm NOT a man.
I'm a woman.
I'm a submissive woman.
To be honest, I quite like being that way.
I don't think being submissive makes me a doormat though of course it does mean that I defer to my boss - my husband - and to men in general because that's how I am.
Even when I was a teenager and in lesbian relationships I was always the submissive, feminine one.
As the Eartha Kitt song goes, "I adore being a girl."
A lot of my life is of course fantasy and role play - mainly with my hubby or online - though I've also had a few other people involved from time to time.
In my stories I can let myself go and explore the dark fantasies that fascinate me.
I was raped when I was 18 years old and it left a lasting impression on me. It traumatised me to some extent but not in the way it does some girls.
What shook me rigid was the fact that I CAME when I was being raped.
It was the BEST fucking orgasm of my life!
That made me think and eventually realise all the feminist stuff I'd been thinking was plain wrong.
Girls aren't meant to be like the feminists want us to be.
We were meant to be submissive and not to try and rule the world.
I'm thinking of starting up a new blog where I can create my ideal fantasy society.
In it, us girls will be how I feel in my heart we ought to be and how in my wild dark fantasies I wish I was already being.
Anyone think it's a good idea or am I just talking out of my arse like usual?