Tuesday, 14 June 2011

I'm all mixed-up at times, I know

OK, I know a lot of people think I'm a total fruitcake.

Some even think I'm really a man pretending to be a woman.

I know one of my great heroes Faye Kane has the same problem!

Well, everyone, I'm NOT a man.

I'm a woman.

I'm a submissive woman.

To be honest, I quite like being that way.

I don't think being submissive makes me a doormat though of course it does mean that I defer to my boss - my husband - and to men in general because that's how I am.

Even when I was a teenager and in lesbian relationships I was always the submissive, feminine one.

As the Eartha Kitt song goes, "I adore being a girl."

A lot of my life is of course fantasy and role play - mainly with my hubby or online - though I've also had a few other people involved from time to time.

In my stories I can let myself go and explore the dark fantasies that fascinate me.

I was raped when I was 18 years old and it left a lasting impression on me. It traumatised me to some extent but not in the way it does some girls.

What shook me rigid was the fact that I CAME when I was being raped.

It was the BEST fucking orgasm of my life!

That made me think and eventually realise all the feminist stuff I'd been thinking was plain wrong.

Girls aren't meant to be like the feminists want us to be.

We were meant to be submissive and not to try and rule the world.

I'm thinking of starting up a new blog where I can create my ideal fantasy society.

In it, us girls will be how I feel in my heart we ought to be and how in my wild dark fantasies I wish I was already being.

Anyone think it's a good idea or am I just talking out of my arse like usual?


  1. I think it is a wonderful idea. I think you should get to work on it right away and add me.

  2. You're not crazy. What happened to you at 18 opened you up like a flower. Now you are serving men as you were made to.

    You need to focus on submission and your dark fantasies in order to realize your full potential. You need to confess everything to us. Just like you would if we were using you.

  3. Your rape didn't tramitize you. As I stated in a comment to one of your other excellent blog post my wife was raped more than once when she was younger and she came each time. it left her one hot submissive cunt and I not reap the rewards. She too was into lesbian affairs for a long time and like you she was submissive. I think one of the things that has made her submissive was the fact that it was her father that first fucked her when she was 16. No he didn't FORCE it on her. I guess you could say he talked her into it and it was then she learned what kind of sex men really like and how to please them. I don't know for sure. I guess I am just speculating at this point. thank you for your post.